Soul (Written By AmbassadorNique)

Soul

What is passion without soul? I’ve been thinking a lot lately about random stuff but one thought that has constantly repeated itself is my time management. One thing that is important to me is how much time I spend in my thoughts. Being able to understand what I have control over and what I do not, what I should let pass. Gaging how important an outsiders thought is. Also just as important what I feed my body, both in the food I eat and food of thought and knowledge.

Return of investment. Not really in a monetary sense but the return I receive from investing my time into my passion, myself, other people ect. Relationships are wonderful learning experiences but different people want different things in life. I cannot reach my goals investing time in friends that have goals that are polar opposites of my own. Also I must prepare myself for the changes that inevitably come from myself and from others. As harsh as this sounds, right here, right now… That’s what I believe.

I must also spend more time motivating myself and those who inspire me. What is art without soul? What is work without passion? Consistency… consistency is a MUST HAVE if I want to achieve what is my definition of success. As I narrow my goals and make them realistic and sensible for others to understand, I still dream BIG, however, I also understand the journey will not happen quickly. The more I network the more I become confident in my vision and my ability to achieve my goals.

I suppose if I sound selfish maybe it’s because at this point, I am. No one else will achieve my goals for me. I will stay focused. I will be consistent. I will invest in myself. I will invest in my passion. I will manage my time. I will put my SOUL in my work!

-AmbassadorNique

Its Been A Long Time… (Written By AmbassadorNique)

Sorry it’s been so long since my last check in, Here is a pretty lengthy update starting from where we left off.

A few weeks ago I sat bored at work with not much to do wondering if I should share this with my supervisors that I did not have enough work. To make a long story short, I told them and I’ve been slammed ever since! HAAAAA! Not really, but it has been quite busy with the start of a brand new quarter here. I am glad I shared this information as well because I am still learning so much. You can only get so far twiddling your thumbs most of the day. Unfortunately this means I do not have the luxury of time to blog like I use to. However, in my quest to obtain a raise I must show that I am worth every dime. I am learning how to manage UP and doing everything I can to take full advantage of this experience!

Life’s been great! I honestly have nothing to complain about. I took the GREs, I didn’t rock its socks off or anything, but it’s over! And I don’t want to talk about it anymore….. I am actually currently working on the mid-career Master’s program that I would love to start this September. The deadline is May 1st and the only thing holding me back is the fact that I finished my undergraduate degree in 2009 (which means I do not have 5 years of work experience) and of course my GRE scores (I said we will not talk about it…). Nevertheless I will apply anyway. Another thing that may hold me back is getting my letters of recommendation. As we all know this processes isn’t always the easiest. I am definitely applying with the intentions to succeed the first time around, but if this does not go as planned I will definitely be applying again this February for Fall 2014. WISH ME LUCK!

Other than that, I’ve been doing well. I have found time to run outside. I’ve come to the conclusion with the arrival of spring and summer there will be a lot more bbq’s, get together, hang outs, and events. I plan to do my best to stay active and socially conscience with what’s going on in Seattle, as well as support good causes. In doing this, it is a priority that I keep a well-trained body for my Fuji hike.

Speaking of Fuji, “DOMOVLOG: ROAD TO FUJI” Yeah? Well its coming soon.

I recently had a short talk with a friend from college about finances. She was listening to the Dave Ramsey podcast (Which I had no idea existed) and a man called in and said he thought the show was fake. He said there was no way people were paying their debts off in such little time making less than he did. She said Dave just laughed at him and explained that these people were not living lavish lifestyles getting rid of debt, but they were sacrificing everything that it took to do so. I thought it was great motivation to think about all the money wasted. I have been doing just okay with finances lately. My credit cards are still paid off, but I’ve been relaxing a bit more. Making time for friends and supporting causes can cost a few pennies here and there that add up. I really need to do better about cooking and making menu’s and bringing enough food to keep me full to lunch. Nevertheless my goals are going and I am a getting closer to where I want to be.

So much to talk about. I will do my best to make end this soon. I finished A Different Mirror: The Mult-cultural America by Richard Takaki. It was definitely a great book that has me thinking about the world through a differently. We are all connected, and its foolish of us to think that we are not. In America it is possible for us to inspire one another. I speak of race issues in a different tone. Every race has overcame a struggle, and most still have one. The Japanese marched along side Mexicans fighting for labor rights and Jewish people funded MLKs Christian Leadership conference. Knowing this, it’s hard to be small minded. I personally cannot let the color of my skin dictate what I can and cannot do.

Side Note** I will come back to this later. I’ve recently been talking to my girlfriend about how it bothers me when people say I am a black person that “wants to be” or “acts” Asian. Yes admittedly I have a lot of Asian friend, but I also have a lot of Latino/a friends, and black friends and some Native and white friends too. I guess it makes me mad because I take so much pride in the fact that I not only can speak intellectually about my own race, but I’ve also gone out of my way to learn about cultures of other people.

Anyway off my soap box! Speaking of Asian, this is a great time to mention I’ve just started reading Eddie Huang’s book Fresh Off the Boat. I’ll let you all know how that goes later.

I read a great short blog post from my friend Kim about being grateful for our privileges.  Interesting enough I was talking to D about the same thing over the weekend as we watched Argo. We spoke about how crazy it is that we were born in such privilege to not have to deal with so many issues. Also the role of United States in the world of both bully and aid giver. The lines can be blurred so quickly.  

Nevertheless, I am very thankful for the many opportunities and resources I have access to on a daily basis. This is something I am doing my best to take full advantage of. I will exercise more, eat healthier, spend wiser, educate myself and read more.

Well there’s work to be done. Until next time stay safe, play smart, and smile.

-Ambassador

Half Empty or Half Full (Written By AmbassadorNique)

One of the hardest parts of staying disciplined is learning to be okay with being selfish. Its hard enough to tell yourself no to certain things, but its even harder to tell the people you hold close that this time you wont be able to come through for them. This is necessary, this is vital and this must happen if I want to make it where I am going. Either separate yourself from what everyone else is doing or live the life that the average person is living.

I cannot honestly say that this week was one of success. I made poor financial decisions, I was not on top of my health, and I did not stay disciplined to working toward my goal of continuing my education. That’s not to say I failed or neglected these things, however just to be honest I could have gone way harder. Seeing the consequences of my behavior will hopefully inspire me. Since I will not be able to hit the gym Monday due to an early morning Orthodontist appointment the goal is to fit that workout in either Sunday or Monday evening. Create a schedule for GRE study time and a budget to SAVE SAVE SAVE! The tickets to Tokyo are currently way to expensive and I can only hope that a deal will appear between now and this summer.

On a brighter note this week wasn’t all bad. I enjoyed good times with some friends at a free luau, and celebrated a birthday with one of my best friends. I also enjoyed the beautiful Jefferson park this morning and wondered why I was paying for a gym when I had such beautiful park less than a mile away (Seattle rain maybe?). There were also tennis courts! I scheduled an appointment with a woman at the University who I hope will lead me in the right direction as far as applying for my Masters is concerned. I’ve also started reading a really good book that I cannot wait to share, and watched a phenomenal documentary about Japanese internment camps called Toyo’s Camera. Overall I have been happy, cooking, and healthy. In life there will always be up’s and downs. Both will continue to inspire me to reach for the stars and both will continue to teach me new lessons. Depending on what angle you look at it, this weak could be considered somewhat of a success.

Is the glass half empty or is it half full? Live long and prosper my friends.

Ambassador

Growth and Transition (Written By AmbassadorNique)

Growth and transition

Monday was to the start of a new chapter. Well… At least a new quarter. I was excited about waking up an hour earlier to get into the gym and work hard, sweat, get healthy and start OPORATION SEXY!! Lol… I joke… But seriously it was supposed to be a great day. Unfortunately Sunday night came and my time management and priorities did not agree with my new workout plan. I assumed that because I was leaving earlier there would be less traffic and it would be okay to catch the later bus to the gym (not thinking that an extra 20 min would be added to my commute from my hike from the bus stop to the actual gym). Well if this was my only issue I would have been okay. I ran outside at 6:35 only to watch the bus that comes every 30 minutes pulling off from the stop that I was supposed to be standing at. My alternate route involved me waiting 30 minutes outside for a light rail train and a transfer bus… Where I was dropped off added 20 minutes of extra walking time. Safe to say by the time I got to the gym I was able to register for a locker and shoot a few hoops before it was time to head off to work.  Later that day I found out the Japanese language class I was to start the next day had been canceled due to lack of enrollment.

*Sigh…*

Wednesday… Wednesday there is always Wednesday, I said to myself… Well this time I had a ride to the gym! (YES, nothing would stop me!) Well… Wednesday is today. I still managed to wake up later than expected (probably bc I went to sleep later than expected). I ended up putting on the wrong contacts (or they were just way to dry and I had no solution on me…) and I had to return home to get my glasses shortly after we got on the freeway and I realized that I couldn’t read any of the signs visibly (Don’t worry I wasn’t driving). Meanwhile it was pouring down raining, I managed to lose my headphones somewhere in this process, Seattle traffic was only getting worst and once again… I found myself at the gym with not enough time to change, workout, shower, get dressed and make it to work by 8:30… I shot hoops again… I told myself FINE I will work out in the afternoon like everyone else. I was ready to give up…

While I was shooting hoops I thought to myself… At most you lost 2 workout days, and a pair of headphones… The route of this problem is probably my lack of sleep. The root of that problem is probably my lack of discipline to get in bed on time to get the proper amount of rest that it takes to fully function. If one is to be committed to making any changes, obstacles and setbacks are to be expected.

Moving forward, I will take the lessons I have learned from these past few days and do my best to get to bed on time. I will also become more disciplined person and work even harder to reach my goals. The Japanese class being canceled doesn’t bother me as much because I am scheduled to start an evening GRE course next month. The course is only 2 months so ALL of my focus will go into that (as it should).

There’s always tomorrow! Tonight I will do the best I can to go to sleep a bit earlier and wake up and start the day off with a smile and a dedicated attitude!

-Ambassador

Happy Holidays (Written By AmbassadorNique)

Happy Holidays

What a roller coaster year. So many lessons learned so many memories made. I am thankful that I can look back and say I ended up flat footed standing up with my chin up and chest out. This to me means the struggle the headaches the confusion and sacrifice was all worth it. I couldn’t have made it without my loving family and a supportive partner in crime. Things this year got rough to the point where I doubted myself and questioned if I was being to prideful and should give up on all of my hopes and goals all together, or should I stick with what I want to do. With this help I was able to stay above water mentally, physically and financially. I was also able to formulate my “dreams” into goals and take realistic steps to making these come to fruition.

As I reflect I have so much to thankful for. My family is healthy. That makes me smile. My family is healthy…. So nice I had to say it twice! Life really is good. Now that I have gotten older and built up some income for myself I no longer wait until Christmas for the things that I really want. Therefore more than gifts the moments are what matters most to me.

In the coming year the goal is to continue to learn, prioritize a healthy lifestyle, and be smarter financially. THIS is what will take me into the future. “Mind over matter… Those that matter don’t mind, and those that mind don’t matter.”

-Ambassador

PS. Happy Holidays!