Torn between chasing money but wanting to make change at the same time. The curse of knowing to much in a capitalist society that is ran by money, greed, corruption evil and lies. No judgement, nor will I throw any stones, because looking out the window I know I can still only try and understand the intentions of the greedy or the struggle of the hopeless, the crimes they feel they must commit to get just a taste of the so called American dream. Fore isn’t that what we all want?
Slaves to the almighty dollar many of us that know better do whatever we can to find a balance between what our heart is telling us and what bill collectors are telling us we must do to get by. Some with no setup or blueprint to success are left making life up as they go learning from the mistakes of our parents, grandparents, peers and neighbors. Saying to ourselves we will not make the same mistakes as those who’s missteps led to their downfalls.
Determination for survival is mandatory. The nihilistic mentality that tomorrow is not promised and we have only one life to live keep minds trapped living for today, and NOW. Forgetting that in an age of global warming the next storm or natural disaster is only around the corner. Furthermore what will we do when the revolution really does arrive? Have we all fallen asleep with our televisions on? Will we be to busy focused on our own problems to recognize the signs?
Life is long, but more importantly life is now. We must strive to live longer, live healthier, live happier, smile, share, integrate, lend a hand, and discover. Be thankful and never underestimate the importance of a baby step. Be thankful that you can wake up with hope. That you can see even a glimpse of the light in the tunnel. There are some who cannot. Never be to quick to judge, to busy to understand, or to blind to see the larger picture. Even if life has no meaning it is up to us to make each day have a purpose.
I am so thankful for my family, my friends, my life. The monkey that was on my back is gone. Now it is up to me to do the things I said I would. To put the time into making the goals I said I would accomplish happen. Get in Shape, learn photography/photoshop/finalcut pro, Study/Take the GREs, Learn Japanese, and save money! These are my goals! THIS is the bigger picture for me.